This week I have been
celebrating a ‘failure’ of rather epic proportions in my personal life. After a year of challenges I’ve made some choices that on the outside look pretty crazy. If I look at them logically they will cost me way too much money... pretty much everything I have worked for during the last 20 years.
You may be wondering… so what exactly is there to celebrate about ‘losing’ way too much money?
These choices give me unprecedented freedom. Despite the obvious financial loss, I am feeling more joy around these issues than I have felt in a very long time. These choices are allowing me to be even more in the question of ‘What else I can change that would generate a phenomenal life for me?’
By removing a whole conglomeration of ‘stuff’ that has been joyless, I am actually opening at least a
million other doors, filled with possibilities which are far more generative than what I have now! Sometimes we have to be willing to lose if we are to create something we truly value.
So these choices allow me to move from
emotional survival to high energy thrival – very quickly and with a lot of ease. These choices allow me to live a joyful life that will contribute way more to my businesses energetically because I won’t be trying to resolve the irresolvable with a person who lives in a fog of insanity, lies and denial.
I am celebrating being able to make these choices without caring about who is right or wrong. Without having to prove my rightness. Without making myself wrong for any of it. Without having to make the other person wrong.
These choices give all of me back to me. These choices give me back all of the energy that has been tied up in the insanities, despite my considerable talents in keeping this situation compartmentalized from the rest of my life. I now have peace. So how does it get even better than this?
If stuff isn’t working for us that sticky energy carries through into every other area of our lives, despite our best intentions. For a while now I have been systematically removing everything that does not contribute to the energy I desire my life to be.
These 'failures' have lead me to make the demand of me to
BE more, to create more and to contribute more. This is why
I celebrate.That can’t show up with
fullness, lusciousness and bliss when there are bits of my life that are ‘stuck’.
So often we are unwilling to let go of ‘stuff’ we believe is important to us. How much of that ‘stuff’ is how we prove we are right? I would ask you to
question everything in your life and look at what you truly desire to keep. Look at what truly gives you joy. Look at what truly delivers the capacity to BE you and change the world. Look at what contributes to your living and what dissipates your energy… and then
have the courage to make the changes that need to be made.
When we don’t have the life we desire it’s because
we’re lying to ourselves about our capacity to be, do, have, create or generate. We’re cutting off bits of ourselves to make the people around us happy, satisfied or comfortable. And all the while
the world misses out on the gift we truly be. In my heart I know that is the real failure I would crawl over broken glass to avoid. (In fact, the past 12 months has felt like that... as I have excavated the real me I have seen how squashed my spirit had become.)
When we remove the sticky bits that no longer serve us we create clarity, choice, change and greater possibilities. I have come to a place where none of the sticky bits are significant to me. It's been an interesting journey...In the past few months I have tried
out every emotion that exists... and then some!
To change all of this, I recognised I need to choose a peaceful, blissful, joyful life where
nothing and no-one can impact my joy. And oh how potent we are when our inner joy bubbles to the surface in the face of the greatest storms! Make peace with your failures and celebrate them… they are but a passing storm.
So… now that I’ve
stopped judging me for all of the ‘wrong’ choices that lead me to this place, I can see there’s really quite a lot to celebrate in this moment! I also know through the essence of my being that
money follows joy. My joy is here, now. So the money thing is not something to be concerned about… when we don’t make the ‘bad’ bits significant it can be a joyride all the way to the bank!
My gratitude for coming through this storm with grace and ease is immense. Woohoo!!
It is my time to drink champagne and dance with this wild and precious life. Anything is possible when we unleash our potency on the world! So what contribution can all of this be to my phenomenal life? I'll give you an update in a few months :)
xox
Lisa
If you enjoyed this post, my Mum's blog post on
Success and Fear, channelled from the Akashic Records at Life Whispering may interest you :) This topic offers much to explore as we move past the restrictions and limitations of how this reality sees many of these current issues.
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in Noosa ocean! What a wonderful gift to have a clear mind and to cease identification with mind chatter. Here's the Link for my CD for anyone interested... http://conscioussolutions.com.au/mindfulness-cd/ Have a fantastic day Lots of love Vanessa